my dog is cute, right? sorry, jas, never managed to bring the picture. so now you can see it here :D xiao hao4 is in mandarin and it is actually from the word hao zi which means rat... so... haha. but it is so tiny and it can never stop biting! but cute at the same time :D ok, i brainwashed myself into thinking it is cute. haha. actually, it is cute when it is sleeping and making that sound as if it is really sad when we leave it alone. but when it starts jumping around, i really cannot take it. it seems that the leg is very fragile too, so it cannot jump from very high place. and it does not help with the fact that it loves to jump! the ears are so cute!!! haha.
a levels coming and i am stil playing. but sort of want to give up putting anymore info into my brain cuz it is not going to work, i will never be able to do ionic, or anything else. feels like just giving up and go into the exam with whatever i have in my tiny brain! really. should i? cuz this is too scary. like knowing things at the last minute and the fact that you spent so much time with it and in the end, you still have got no idea wtf the question is asking about when the question comes out in a levels. then you feel so demoralized cuz you spent so much of your time on it T.T
tired and do not want to think about anything.
what do you do when somebody do not think like you or like everyone else does? does this mean you are right? or at least socially right? what if it is starting to give you pain in the a*! how many times can you put yourself in their shoes (and still not understand anything every single time you did that)?! how many times can you use the same excuse for a person, thinking that this is inherent in this person and so i cannot help it? when do you know that you have stop having feelings? how do you know you are ready to let go of whatever it is that is or was important to you? when will the fear of insecurity and fear of changes ever going to leave? when someone hurts you, is it that person insensitive or you are too sensitive?
sigh... just some questions about life that has been bugging me... haha.
sigh... a levels.
sigh, sick again. sore throat.
ps : i have concluded that i am super chicken! sis should understand. i bet that's what she thinks too... isn't it?
a levels coming and i am stil playing. but sort of want to give up putting anymore info into my brain cuz it is not going to work, i will never be able to do ionic, or anything else. feels like just giving up and go into the exam with whatever i have in my tiny brain! really. should i? cuz this is too scary. like knowing things at the last minute and the fact that you spent so much time with it and in the end, you still have got no idea wtf the question is asking about when the question comes out in a levels. then you feel so demoralized cuz you spent so much of your time on it T.T
tired and do not want to think about anything.
what do you do when somebody do not think like you or like everyone else does? does this mean you are right? or at least socially right? what if it is starting to give you pain in the a*! how many times can you put yourself in their shoes (and still not understand anything every single time you did that)?! how many times can you use the same excuse for a person, thinking that this is inherent in this person and so i cannot help it? when do you know that you have stop having feelings? how do you know you are ready to let go of whatever it is that is or was important to you? when will the fear of insecurity and fear of changes ever going to leave? when someone hurts you, is it that person insensitive or you are too sensitive?
sigh... just some questions about life that has been bugging me... haha.
sigh... a levels.
sigh, sick again. sore throat.
ps : i have concluded that i am super chicken! sis should understand. i bet that's what she thinks too... isn't it?
Labels: Family, Random thoughts
posted by ˈtʃokəlitsrbluː at 11:42 AM