Have you ever, tried to suppress a feeling inside you, making yourself immune to it, perhaps by not thinking about it, disillusioning yourself that that something has not happened, making yourself feel that it is not as grieve as it feels like (actually, you have no idea how bad it feels cuz you are not even thinking about it, or at least trying very hard not to). Then when you accidentally for god-knows-why you decided to peek into that little Pandora's Box and you discovered that you are really just a mere weakling trying desperately to live as a parasite, depending so much on someone.

Ok, I was tryign to be cheem. I know, using cheem words to describe things that I might not even know. If you understood, congrats, either you are the same level as me, hahahahaha, or you just been kheunized (that sounds familiar from somewhere), or I might really have a flair for these sort of things!!! Hahahaha.

On the lighter note, it is the time of the year again, the time when everyone gathered in SG will undoubtedly, eagerly leaving the country. Oh, and also Christmas! I so "missed" my ice-scream scooping job, wait, did i just type -scream? Ya, the awful, I mean jolly job where I listened to repeating carols in the mall. Haha.

When will I ever grow up~ Just like you, sis, ya?