Have you ever felt so lonely?
Your family is right next to you. But you are so so lonely cuz you cannot talk to them.
Your sis scolding each time she opens her mouth.
Your dad glued to the tv and not wanting to talk about anything emotional cuz he has enough to worry about.
Your mom keeps asking if you talk to her cuz she cannot catch up with whatever you are talking about.
You think of who you can call. One by one off the list. Cuz you just cannot imagine talking to them. Sometimes, you talk to those who you are comfortable with. Someone you feel like talking to.
Or they are not free.
And you are picky.
But you have nothing to talk about, actually.
You just need someone to talk to. Someone. To talk about nothing.
And music does not help. It makes you feel even more lonely.
I feel so lonely. Like I am left out in this world. Not cuz people leave me out. Cuz of me.
People who you want to talk to at this moment, those people you chose, did you choose them cuz of their public social status? Or cuz of their status in your heart?
Labels: Emo, Random thoughts
posted by ˈtʃokəlitsrbluː at 10:42 PM
